cold.passion

after falling,

the feeling’s appalling …doused in emotion, moveless …no motion!

crimson blood, in veins circles no more, heart freezes.

the glimpse lingers, and not much of sane left,

eyesight blurs filled with tears, tears of flaming spirit …

A shooting star, A hopeless heart

burn ..

the longing for the other part, the waiting for the fingertips of ..

… of whom set the fire within .

no cure could take place,,

no remedy to mend the heart, but the beats of A heart

underneath and inside who she which ignited the soul and left away …

heal me, but leave the bruise

it’s the mark of my dearest

..:: I’ll bring the falling star, if its the wish of yours ::..

A deep breath drives me away, life begins to blur, eyes all filled up ..

how relevant is my life to others?

Am I? A significant of any to others?someone?

not to believe in, but to ponder and seek …

observe and gaze, its not real! they’re just motivated by their lust’s seductive fantasies, emotional deficit, irrational logic!

Love is respect, appreciation, dignity …

but, its all forgotten, abandon principles. the standards of passion demolished, brought down, and no one loves anymore …

seek a path of faith to it, at least you could bring it back again …

maybe not!

maybe will …

maybe it’s just meant to be, after all … time reigns.

boredom drives me

2morrow the 1st day in skoolz

and yea! .. the feelin’ sucks

it jst hitted me while listenin’ 2 some shitty muziik ..

The untold part of me

I’m moody, I mean really moody, my mood fluctuates 2ice every sec!

Whn i speak, its an event to remember!- and if I make sense that’s a whole story

I never achieved a thing in my pathetic life

ppl i know think i lived in the uk 4 two yrs!, while i was with’em the whole time .. weird i know!

Technically I’m asleep 75% of the day, either sleepin’ or daydreamin’

I’m soo cold, i won’t care if some bomb blew somewhere near! thats wt i feel y3nii!

I almost got sexually molested whn i was 10! I never told anyone bout’ it

 I cry easily!

I’m pretty complicated with food, I only eat chicken, ant not anythin’ with chicken

I Hate Skool!

I Hate Books

I Hate Wakin’ up @ 5!

jst wanted 2 express my self ..

The term “Love”, pictured with the icon of the heart.

Is it the way you think of it, can someone love anyone with the blink of an eye,

can someone loathe anyone in an eyelash-shut moment.

life, the more i breath the air the more my contempt towards human beings enlarges …

i believe that we had been deceived by our own selves, might seems like some kind of hallucination!

A love could exist in a matter of a gaze, till now even love had lost every sacred, sentimental, spiritual, sense.

And can a breathing, living, member of the mankind hate and curse his partner in origin, just ’cause he feel like it,

it breaks every hope that you hold on, n’ takes away what you have been promised with

does our emotional orientation represent us!?

can a “Love” of that kind exist, sincerely!?

will we survive with all that hatred!?

i ask you forgiveness if wasting your precious time i did, im just a person whom lost in a maze, of lies its built

i whisper :

oooh! …the mystery of my existence,

oooh ..

the reason behind my persistence …

in vain she reply’s:

live a thousand times, and still your insistence never enough!

i’m a need of your desire, I AM the peak of your regrets.

my hopeless heart reveals:

not desire nor the need of you masters me, more than the vows of heart’s do!

my regrets are my breaths, without you, and the peak is giving in to your possession.

heartless says:

so i am a property of yours in your consideration, that only time draws the limitation!?

revise the selfish you!

do my pure spirit belong to it’s egoistic entity!?

the love inside of me spoken:

it does!

i own you,

.. i wish i do!

only if owned my psyche, which you’ve prisoned

selfless i am, how could be selfish!?

i’m not me, i’m not you, you are me

you are mine, i’m not, because whats your’s is you

My life so dark,

With no light to guide

My life so complicated,

With no one to simplify

Flowers all over, reds n’ whites …

Heart beats soaring, a rush in the eyes

Glittering lights, vague vision …

A sentiment gaze towards the mirror …

Deep inhalation,

GOD!!! Merciefy …

I pledge my abidance to your sacred breath,

I grant my psyche to your subordination

I fall,

in the world of wonders, I’m lost!

where no reality nor sense exist

passion overtakes,

a river of my tears

I stand tall,

illusion …?! , what i feel!

i hold onto the faith i have

i loosen up,

i unclench my fists

and then, I collapse

i stare, deep in my head

erased …

nothing left within me

i give unto you

and  lay, strengthless

i place the white rose upon my chest

slowly .. , i shut my eyelids

and  smother

Take me …

           break me …

but with love assemble me

- - - - -

Steal me …

          kill me …

but never leave me

- - - - -

I break thru myself,I bleed coz of u

                           I got all the wealth,only whn i have u

…  just words, nothing more! …

eternal, immortal emptiness …

it feels like lost!, and seeking for salvation …

to be free, to feel alive once again!

but cold air is what's beneath …ice cold heart,,,

its out there,, somewhere …could be anywhere!

i'll be waiting in the queue .. till the circle of my existence connects!

i'll be there …with hope, alone!

wishs are to find a cure …someone to defrost my heart, so it beats again

and with a touch of life, i get what i have been deprived of!

when the blood floods, when i revive

by then,,

i know that i have found the lost piece of me